What if we kissed in the Criterion Closet

Today I had a job interview in a really busy outdoor mall part of town. I wore these really nice dress shoes that clack clack clacked so that gave me a lot of confidence.

I think the interview went well, but I've been ghosted by a lot of employers in that area, so not holding my breath.

I've been having a great time. been going outside more lately.

Ordered some xbox 360 games for a late birthday present for myself (they were really cheap) and I also got Ocarina prima guide (i used to have it as a kid, but i no longer do, and that game is dear to me).

I painted every other tile black in my bathroom and decided to leave the other tiles the offwhite colour since that matches the countertops.

What a surprisingly good day. I randomly got enough energy to do some labour as the party was starting tonight but I didn't expect to spend much or any time there, but I was getting quite hungry after washing the walls down, and then everyone was like "HI" and I realized everything was just in my head.

My partner ended up getting hit by a Tesla on its bike today, but he's fine, his bike is surprisingly fine, but the Tesla was fucked up. And he was understandably upset.

Everyone was also glad to see him and that he was okay so I am relieved that everything was just in my head.

Started deep cleaning the bathroom tiles with a mould and mildew remover, planning on painting the tiles black and white patterned at some point.

There were 6 pets in my chicken smoothie collection that went up a rarety (usually they go down) so that was unusual.

I didn't write yesterday. I'm feeling better, seems there was a lot of errors made with tallying up no-shows and labour hours, so it wasn't just me.

I did about 5 hours of labour yesterday and I got so tired I could barely move after.

We're still trying to fund a move to another apartment, though, because i WOULD like a pool, and the rent is too high here, but I am glad I don't have to panic as much.

I am extremely tired today.

Gash had the day off, today and it was a lazy day didn't really do much except right at night I saw an email from the co-op mailing list that both me and it have been missing labour hours. Fucking HUH? So that stressed me out for several hours because I have in fact been doing my labour and gash has been, too.

There were actually times I wasn't doing labour last year, but I've been doing it as hard as I can, which from my disabilities is sometimes harder than it should be.

I'll definitely make sure I go to the meeting this Sunday evening and state my piece.

There were people on maintenance who weren't actually doing anything labour wise since they weren't assigned anything but weren't marked up as missing hours. Strange.

Ask meme for people in their 30s

1.What was the first piece of furniture you bought?
probably the pink couch that arrived broken. i prefer free or used furniture

2. What proportion of your meals do you cook?
ask me when i've been able to treat my ocd

3. Foaming hand soap or normal hand soap?
normal - it goes in my dispenser, foaming needs a special dispenser

4. Favorite chore?
cleaning the bathroom

5.Least favorite chore?
mopping - it just hurts

6. Most precious thing one of your pets has destroyed?
so... many things...

7. Any groceries you've been getting into lately?
idk i cant afford to byt groceries so we get food thru a special program that gives us free donated food from trader joes, but i really do love trader joes baked goods, like a lot..

8. What cleaning product do you swear by?
409 gets up just about any stain in a spray but pine sol or fabuloso when mopping

9. What's your emotional support craft?
i really do have to start doing crafts, i want to get into basketmaking.

10. Youtube, cable TV, or streaming?
i only subscribe to the criterion channel but i dont mind watching youtube, as well, lots of free movies on ther.

11. What's something you saved up for and then regretted buying?
my old kia soul that i dont even have anymore..

12. How many cups can you see from where you're sitting?
its dark, i can't see shit.

13. Which filter are you most likely to go "eh, it's probably fine" when you find out you need to change it?
im always worried about filters bc filters = clean air and i need that. sometimes, though i just can't afford the replacments

14. How often do you take baths?
i try to at least every other day

15. Do you go down each aisle when you grocery shop, or only the ones you know you need stuff from?
depends on if we have extra money (or money at all..) and if we have a strict list that day

16. Where do you go when you need to get out of the house but it's raining?
i really love taking a nice walk in the rain, though

17. What's a movie you saw recently that you liked?
i really liked ben-hur (1959)

18. Pro or anti tchotchkes?
100% pro

19. What's your go-to tape?
duct usually, it's multipurpose

20. What's in your freezer right now?
i have no idea, my ocd prevents me from going into my kitchen

21. Last concert you attended?
last august i believe we saw Priest

22. Favorite grocery store?
mmm H.E.B i really love their store branded ice creams

23. Paper bags, plastic bags, or reusable bags?
resuable

24. Do you get your government mandated 8 hours every night?
oh, you mean sleep? sometimes, despite the fact i don't work sometimes i only get a couple hours of sleep and that sucks but generally I sleep quite well.

25. Favorite old person activity?
birdwatching

26. Would you rather sit on the porch drinking sweet tea or sit by the lake drinking beers?
i hate beer and love sweet tea

27. Do you prefer Boardgame Night, Build-Your-Own-Pizza Night, or Movie Night with your friends?
even when i don't feel super social i still love to do a movie night every week with my friends, it's really engaging.

28. Be honest, do you like all of the pictures of their babies that your friends send you?
not a single one of my friends has babies

29. Go-to holiday card format?
what?

30. How many pairs of scissors do you own?
too many

31. Do you still own your first car?
i miss her everyday

32. How do you take your morning coffee/tea?
i like peppermint tea

33. What's something you collect?
physical media, pokemon cards

34. What's your commute like?
i'm unemployed i stay at home.

35. Aisle at the grocery store you never bother walking down?
i can't think of aisles i go out of my way to avoid.

36. Do you keep a daily journal or agenda?
yeah.

37. Do you still listen to the same music you listened to in high school?
my alters do, i don't thankfully.

38. What's the last filter you changed?
i don't remember

39. What little treat do you always get when you run errands?
ice cream

40. Grocery list or no grocery list?
grocery list groceries are expensive

41. What's the oldest thing you own?
my partner's ancient Korean paintings which are over 100 years old. Got it from his dad who got it from His dad.

42 What's an unjustifiably expensive appliance that you really want?
Not that expensive but I want a slow cooker and a air fryer,

43. Favorite book you've read recently?
parable of the sower.

44.Honest feelings on Settlers of Catan?
i never played it.

45. What's something you wish you had more time for?
watching movies, there's so many of them.

46. What kind of stuff do you keep on the door of your refrigerator?
condiments or cans of drink

47 Lamps or overhead lighting?
both but lamps can really add both to the light but also aestheically

48 If you could build your home from scratch, what outrageous feature would you want to build into it?
a house with a mud room, indoor/screened porch, laundry room and at least three bedrooms with one bedroom nearer to the kitchen would be all i need.

49. Do you bring a bag with you everywhere you go?
yeah

50. Pro or anti throw pillows?
throw pillows are so cute

How many blankets do you keep in your living room?
51. out living room is a mess right now so its hard so say

52. Did your relationship with your parents get better when you stopped living with them?
the relationship with my mom and i was fine but now its basically nonexistant. my dad's dead though.

53. What's worse, the DMV or the Social Security Office?
both are evil with their amount of tedius beaucracies and pointless barriers.

54. Do you decorate your house for holidays? Which ones?
would love to for lunar new yaer but i never have the money

55. Favorite high-effort meal that you make?
im disabled

56. Favorite low-effort meal that you make?
meal kits my beloved...

57 Do you tend to bring an appetizer, entree, dessert, or drinks to a potluck?
desert

58. What kind of bag do you use for your bag full of bags?
its not a bag, right now i think theyre ust sort of thrown in a cabinet somewhere.

59. If you died and your ghost was stuck in the outfit you're wearing right now for the rest of time, would you be happy with it?
i dont want to be in my underwear forever

60. Do you have an opinion on your local weather reporter?
what even

61. Do you have a favorite brunch spot?
i dont eat out

62 Where are you on the minimalism-maximalism kinsey scale?
maximalism

63 Opinion on Bath and Body Works?
i dont really care for them theyre over priced

64 Last time you visited a farmer's market?
when we lived in california

65 Anything you're procrastinating on right now?
sleeping

66Do you get your taxes in as soon as possible, at the last minute, or late?
early

67 Do you keep any stuffed animals on your bed?
right now a fish and my partners creeper

68.Are your garbage bags scented or unscented?
scented is kind of dumb like theyre going in the dumpster

69 What are you looking forward to next week?
new free food, movie nights like each week

I'm still quite nervous. I haven't had a period since I went off T. I pulled myself off it in November and I'm really getting nervous. Of course the time that I want to have a period, it never comes.

We've had plans of starting a family, especially because I'm not going to get any younger (i'm already 30 this month) but for some reason, I still haven't had a period....

I do hope it comes back I can't even find a place in my state that has LGBT preconception visits (not that I even like to visit the doctor).

On another note, I barely got much sleep today (I went to sleep at 3am) and I woke up at like 6am because the wind was blowing and my throat started hurting from the pollen. AND there's that red flag warning in my area right now, so I'm kind of stressed.

I really like living in a co-op. The one I live in, everyone has their own apartment unit so there is a semblance of independence, but still have that community close at hand.

I really think that community is more important than voting. You can't vote out fascism but you can find a community and help each other survive.