What if we kissed in the Criterion Closet

Today I had a job interview in a really busy outdoor mall part of town. I wore these really nice dress shoes that clack clack clacked so that gave me a lot of confidence.

I think the interview went well, but I've been ghosted by a lot of employers in that area, so not holding my breath.

I've been having a great time. been going outside more lately.

Ordered some xbox 360 games for a late birthday present for myself (they were really cheap) and I also got Ocarina prima guide (i used to have it as a kid, but i no longer do, and that game is dear to me).

I painted every other tile black in my bathroom and decided to leave the other tiles the offwhite colour since that matches the countertops.

I read a manga (It was called the Broken Marika) that really struck home, it was about a suicide of a close friend and she had to steal the ashes from her parents in order to "save" her.

It's often difficult to find things that actually makes me feel cathartic about when one of my best friends committed suicide back in June 2023, but this manga made me feel the emotions I've been repressing for a long time.

Me and cenobite watched They Cloned Tyrone (2023) and My god that was a good movie. Very beautiful, stylish and extremely well made. One of the best things I've seen from the 2020s, I believe.

Being a listener on 7cups is really using up a lot of time now, but that's okay I like helping people.

On a manga kick now and have been reading a lot of small short manga. I'm really picky with series so I'm a bit of a harsh rater.

I've been feeling really weird so I just became a listener on 7cups and it's actually helping.

Don't feel like writing more today.

I've been playing Skyrim more again (level 39 character atm). I think Skyrim is fun because I can play for over 10 years and put hundreds of hours in it and there's STILL quests or things I've never done or played with before. Right now, I'm currently trying to level up the less combat oriented skills like speech and smithing because I would like to invest in shops and make dragon bone/scale armour.

I've been tearing through Blame! it's a really good manga. Reminds a lot of the video game Scorn but also Metropolis (1927).

My partner cenobite has the day off today. Next week, it'll have 4 days off (and it's also paid next week!) so we plan to do some cleaning next week.

Last night we decided to get burgers when my partner got home from work (the place we got it from, we're always ordering the same order) but this time I got a mint oreo shake, and it was really good. Still have my chocolate chip cookie and giant strawberry lemonaid today. Sometimes after not getting take out in a while you just have to get burgers.

I'm still quite nervous. I haven't had a period since I went off T. I pulled myself off it in November and I'm really getting nervous. Of course the time that I want to have a period, it never comes.

We've had plans of starting a family, especially because I'm not going to get any younger (i'm already 30 this month) but for some reason, I still haven't had a period....

I do hope it comes back I can't even find a place in my state that has LGBT preconception visits (not that I even like to visit the doctor).

On another note, I barely got much sleep today (I went to sleep at 3am) and I woke up at like 6am because the wind was blowing and my throat started hurting from the pollen. AND there's that red flag warning in my area right now, so I'm kind of stressed.

I really like living in a co-op. The one I live in, everyone has their own apartment unit so there is a semblance of independence, but still have that community close at hand.

I really think that community is more important than voting. You can't vote out fascism but you can find a community and help each other survive.